As pediatrics comes to a close...

I'm going to miss a lot of it, but I'm also going to not miss certain aspects of it.  As I typed that, I realized how this is going to be true for everything that I'm going to decide not to do.  For example, surgery didn't sit all too well with me, but the fact that I will never see the OR again after residency is somewhat disheartening.  The fact that I will never work up a patient all the way through the course of a stroke from a Neuro ICU standpoint is also not that great.  I wish I could do it all, but I can't.  I have to choose, and whatever I'll choose, I'll have a tiny bit of regret that I didn't choose everything else I didn't choose.  Med school is tough not because of the learning that we have to do.  The learning happens whether we like it or not, one way or another, through good and bad experiences.  The reason medical school is tough is because of the difficult choices that we have to make and the not-so-medical questions we have to answer.  Do I choose to follow through with this action?  How will this impact me? Others? My future patients?  Do I even want to stay in medical school?  Did I make the right decision in the first place to become a doctor?